|Picture drawn by my artist sisyy, Asmiya Basheer|
During the first week of his 3rd month, I was normally feeding him when he pushed away and looked at me. He usually just dozes off to sleep feeding so this was unusual! As I looked on he cooed and his lips parted into his First Teethless Gummy Smile. OMG you guys!!! That was such a beautiful moment! I can’t just properly describe how I felt but I just wanted to cry and laugh and smother him with kisses and hugs all at once! All the pains, hardships and struggles vanished in a second! As I fought back my emotions to squeeze the daylights out of him, he closed his eyes and went back to feeding!
So that brings the topic to me – how am I coping up as a new mother? Well, I wouldn’t say i am dealing with it all wonderfully! Instead I am feeling like I am totally messing things up! In Ramadan, though my work timing was less, I still felt like I didn’t have enough time for anything! I didn’t have enough time with baby, I didn’t have enough time to bath, to eat, to pray, to clean, to cook – I just wanted to ask extra time for everything (which was unfortunately not possible). Everything was incomplete for me. I have absolutely no idea how I would have survived if my family were not with me. My baby was a late sleeper – so my mom and sister would play with him when I slept (don’t look at me like that, I had to get at least 5 hrs of sleep so that I look human in office next day!!). Soon after Ramadan I got 9 days leave! I just made the most out of it with my baby! So much that i was literally in tears when I had to get back to work. Off late he has also started showing dislike towards bottle feeding. I had not faced this problem until now. My mom and sister has to play lot of tricks to get him to feed when I am at work – they try to feed him in sleep or by distracting him and stuff! I don’t know how he would be reacting when we start giving him solids in 6th month. In Sha Allah! May Allah make it easy, Ameen!
I am no longer in pain from the c-section now but if I touch my tummy I do feel it tender and slightly painful. I have not resumed to any proper fitness routine. I don’t intend to do any hard workout fearing it might interfere with my milk supply but I am planning on going for walks and do yoga. For keeping up my milk supply I try to take 2 glasses of milk daily and eat well. I eat oats, flax seeds, fruits, veggies and cereals! I have lost around 10kgs after my delivery and I still have around 15kg to lose. But i am not in a hurry, I will take it slow.
For now, I intend to spend maximum time possible with my baby. For this reason you might see less posts on my blog. I hope you understand. I am trying to tackle a lot in life, but I will try maximum to stay positive and concentrate on enjoying each and every moment! After all that’s life!! Right?
Good day buddies!